Unstill

Am I too much
   or not enough?
The indifference
   invites imagining.

Every careless look
   empty gesture
      egressive phrase
Pregnant with meaning.

Why do I try
   at all
When met
   with apathy?

The boy
   clothed now
      in manhood
   irresolute
      in his path
Fumbles about.

Desperate
   to connect
Fearful
   to commence
Obviate
   too early.

run, Run, RUN
from self
from the sad
from you
   before indifference
   suffocates me.